Hey miss baldy

every once in awhile, we come upon curiosities and we say, fuck it, just do it. haha, and so last night i was curious what being bald would feel like. so, giggling and smiling michieviously i shaved it all off. yes, I am completely bald .... "down there." My ..ooooh, so smooth.

lol, no! i didn't shave off my long hair. I shaved off the other head.

i got so sensitive while doing the deed. all the time thinking in my head, "omg--i'm gonna cut myself any moment now!" then i would totally regret it and never do this again! i always had the curiousity of what myself would look like.. haha

my first impression.. brought me a whole flood of memories of when I was a kid. it was actually embarrassing even to myself. i wanted all my hair back. the things i do to myself, really. and I knew my g/f would be so amused when she saw. she started cracking her ass off which further made me feel even more embarrassed. I've been egging her on for awhile to do it to herself--but she could never think of it. She could never think of torturing herself like that, she says.

i went to the mall today, walked around a bit. and since miss baldy was just clean shaven and still very sensitive (i never realize how many times my clothing would rub there until now!) my walk around the mall was quite sensitive and uncomfortable. I look down at myself and think my gosh... i lost my precious! .. haha

never, never--i don't want to do this no more. gimme my hair back!

Update: Site Feed

I'm new to the "news aggregator" and site feeds, it didn't really interest me last year since it was much more fun to surf the world wide web of blogs and visiting pages. However, this got quite time consuming and distractions were everywhere. So, this morning I got into playing with the whole RSS and ATOM and placing a link to my page.

So, if you're interested, I have just added a site feed link for your convenience. Happy reading!

Every now and then

we get lazy days!

I've had a whole month of lazy days! Yeah, there were responsibilities like getting my wisdom teeth extracted, volunteer and packing my stuff (getting ready to move across town). So really, I've done a whole lot of nothing. I got to read a lot, play a lot, sleep a lot and do nothing a lot. It was good. I also got good news from my family--they're planning on moving out to another state!!

You see, my family had a family business. My dad always had dreams of being his own boss. So until he actually got to experience it, he found out that he actually didn't like all the responsibilities. That it was actually a stressful, no-fun job! After two years of playing-your-own-boss, the parents decide to sell the business and get the hell outta the state. So in the upcoming month or two, I will be helping my family pack their belongings, find a moving company, and haul ass over to the state of Texas! yahoo! (cowboy style) I hope things will run smoothly now that my parents are free from their stressing job. One that only allowed at least 5 hours of sleep a day. Hey, they were missing out on REM (rapid-eye-movement) sleep, the most important stage of sleep in an 8 hour sleeptime. REM sleep is supposedly when you are in your deepest slumber and your brain rids itself of toxic brain chemicals and fixes your hormones and tidies up for your upcoming next day. No wonder my parents were always strapped for sleep and grouchy and might i say, aged a lot in that past two years.

My sister got a new puppy and so now we got two little runts running around the house. how cute.

down the drain

eloquence is my name. desire is who I want inside. intelligence is what blesses me. humor is every part of my body. things feel like they tear up inside, and i tell you. i will fight and struggle to my very last of my breath. jealousy is my last name. i quiver with every blink of an eye. passion fills me up like air. tension is everywhere i go. 

what is your name?

i feel like i can go crazy. i feel like standing at the highest point of earth and screamm and yell out my life. that's all i can live for anymore. no really? i don't feel anymore, i can't think anymore. i feel a loss of my desires. i feel like a tornado has ripped my insides and out. we live for the next moment in life. but we don't know where it will take us. some of us have troubled minds. funny, actually--everyone lives with troubled mines and broken consciences. we all call out for our next step and just blindly step forward. do we really know what we live for? do you really know why you answer your own questions the way you do? no we don't. we just think we do. and throw this facade to our fellow brothers and sisters. our precious mother earth can no longer direct us teach us and comfort us. what will happen with it is gone? do we kill  and eat each other for our survival? yes ... no, we all live differently and we all desire differently. love live laugh in many different ways. yet everyone thinks they have what it takes to take them through the next day. we don't know the whole truth. we give ourselves the truth. you and i, we'll go on like nothing is really forever. truly--memories are suppose to last, but they don't ever do. we burst in anger at the world, at ourselves for not comprehending no longer. it's what we live for. we think we know.

explain yourself. no i don't think anyone can. no one knows why human nature is the way it is. why we live the life we do and how we make our own graves to lay in. we go crazy, and do crazy things like that. that's human nature. we will forgive and forget and we will kill and love. we might take our own selves and think to control it, all we have to do is take the human life away. that is how we can control what is not ours. that is how we pretend to live our lives. guilt and pain is all the same. no one knows for sure where the definition is. it is not something we want to find out but maybe we fool ourselves to let it be. and we will live our sorry ways. we will we will.