whoo, that was a lot of nudity

yes that's right. I just got through a whole lot of porn. haha, my
sister reads this and i know when i talk about sex with her, she gets
uncomfortable. so sis, if you are reading this--i recommend you turn
your eyes and click the "back" button to wherever you came from.

anyways, being the lesbian that i am, it is dificult to find lesbian
porn. most of the lesbian stuff i've seen are geared towards the
straight world. wtf is that? yeah lesbians get horny too you know.
anyways the porn i've seen does not turn me on in any way. Those girls
have loong manicured nails, ahhhh! stay away from me. i'm gonna bleed
and it's not because my hymen broke! it's your nails you damn bitch!

so i was in a horny mood and since my g/f has this subscription to
porn--i figured, why not. and so straight porn turns me on. yeah, it
makes me want to have sex with a man. is that weird? but i know that
if i had to get through with it, it would not be the right thing for
me. i would feel used like a piece of meat. but the feeling i get from
watching those porn, i wonder how those girls do it? what is that
freedom that allows them to have sex uninhibited by the camera? after
an hour or so i got sick of that that dick & pussy crap that i stopped
watching and left the site. enough of that stuff. what is interesting
is that one of the girls i recognized off a website i use to visit
long ago. A site that had girls wrestling and whoever loses gets
fucked by the other girl with a strap-on. it turned me on for about a
month and then i stopped watching. oh where oh where is my g/f to take
away these feelings of desire? oh yeah, she's in a coffeeshop
somewhere studying to be a doctor. she's too busy to spend some TIME
with her g/f.

speaking of my gf, she is actually going to leave me in about 9 days
to go see family in the city. that means i'd be alone for about 2.5
weeks! i don't know how i'm going to spend x-mas without my family or
my gf but i'll try my best.