Feeling the high

It amazes me how growing up and watching those who you grew up with change. Yeah, change is good. It makes me miss the olden days. I want to go back to the old days because I'm familiar with them. If I could walk through the days again, I would do it because I already know what's going to happen. Maybe I wouldn't be such a worry wart that I am.

People I know that are doing things, having fun, enjoying life. How does everyone find their place to be themselves on this world? How do they love themselves better each day as the time passes? Where do they go when they don't find what they need? How do people stay strong and wake up to smile the next day?

There are those who live their lives to prove it to another human being, prove that they are worthy to be acknowledged as another human being, worthy of someone's love. While there are others who live for themselves. They smile, dance, and look beautiful for the person they are inside. They make decisions that makes them happy. They work hard to do the things they enjoy. They keep themselves feeling the high from one day to the next. That's it. They feel the high, and only they need to find the strength inside and move on. Dust off the dirty and negative feelings and move onward and upwards.

I'm so happy, she makes me so happy

I've never been in a real relationship before and ooh, she just makes
me so happy. I love waking up next to her and kissing her. Her company
makes me smile, having to spend little moments with her is just makes
me feel complete!

We always talk about how we won't be able to find another like person
to match... yadda yadda, etc etc.

I wonder how true this statement is. That when we break away, how easy
or how hard would it be for us to move on? I don't know... I guess
time can only tell. I always think about how it only takes a moment to
tell her I love her and a lifetime to show her how much. It's true.
And I want to spend the rest of my life showing her how much I love
her.

So, it's finally Friday!!! Friday Friday Friday! It just sounds so
much more exciting in my head than when I say that aloud. Sometimes
when I'm in the mood, I brag about it being a Friday, no place to be,
no things to do, it's all but fun. Instead, weekends and Fridays turns
out to be those days where I think about what is the best way to spend
my Friday or weekends with the most quality fun as possible. Yeah, so
to be productive while I figure out what I can do, I would do
homework, papers, projects, presentations. Although with the many
breaks I take, I don't get as productive as I'd like to be.

Anyways, Friday's are always fun to be excited about! yes yes!! it's
FRIDAY!!! Happy Friday to you! Happy Friday to me! Happy Friday to all
those on earth!

The Human Spirit Prevails

Although I am stressed and distressed, I believe I will prevail.
Because what is inside my spirit is not just the power to understand
but the power to overcome. I will do what is in my best interest to
graduate this school year with a big imprint on my graduation
transcript that I will PASS with flying colors.

That was my moment of empowerment.

I just hope it would stay like that.

So, it's a Wednesday. Once I get over today and follow through with
the next two days, I will be homefree towards the weekend, yippee! I
dropped one of my courses over the weekend because it was too
stressful for me. I don't like having stress. Stress is yuck, stress
should jump off the shores of Lake Michigan and stay there. Stress,
stop bothering me!

Now that I dropped that 4 hour course, I have more time to fool
around, to procrastinate and to do the things I love to do. Such as
surfing and writing blogs, surfing the web, reading the newspaper and
community happenings, i like to know what's going on during the
weekends even if I don't really go to them. Oh, and more time to cook!

I have recently discovered the power of vinegar. Vinegar!!! Yup,
preferably distilled. I made jalepeno peppers with them, I made
pickled carrots, and I'm going to make some Kimchi (pickled cabbage)
with it. Yay! And this upcoming weekend, I want to make Hummus!! yay
for chickpeas! yay yay for cooking! I'm excited, I can't wait to go
grocery shopping to buy my supplies. Been bothering my girlfriend to
take me to the store. I don't wanna go by myself. I usually do, but
this time around, I just want more company.

Dishearted

Not sure where I'm heading for
Been busy with too much thinking and wondering
Angry with emotions
It gets her mad when I'm this way

I blame my PMS
How else would I say it
But most of all, I'm displeased with myself

I'm tired from sleeping all the time
Sleep helps me forget
of my world workings
I don't know what I should do
or even if I want to do anything at all
I'm clueless in this exhausted state of mind