The roles we play
I always imagined myself to be the submissive one in the relationship. The one that gets to be hugged while my partner has her arms around my waste or my shoulders. I always imagined myself to be in the passenger's seat the one who received the flowers not the other way around. It seems I find myself in the opposite role. I'm the one that is spooning her, I'm the one that feels like the dominant one. Our relationship is a weird one. She's more tomboyish than I am yet I'm the one who hugs her and comforts her in bed. It kinda conflicts with the vision I have in my head.
Turns out there's a lot of differences in the both of us. We can find the place to meet each other halfway with no problems that we actually like our differences. I'm scared however that one day we won't be able to meet halfway and there belies our woes and problems.
I like to hugged too and I want her to hug me in bed. Not me hugging her all the time, I do ask her to hug me, and she does but only for a short moment.
She asked me last night if I would like it better if I found someone that was more like myself. Someone who enjoyed going out to the bars and clubs more often, someone who would enjoy getting drunk and enjoy a little spontaneity more often. All of the things she isn't. I told her, "No. Someone that is too like me would get on my nerves. I like the stability that she brings to our relationship. I feel safe with her, I feel as if we could be together for a long time. Someone who is much too like me would not believe in long-term relationships. Someone like me would change her mind so fast, a relationship wouldn't be anything at all."
I tell myself that if I need a dominant/submissive relationship, then I should go find it with the male species. Maybe it's the images that I grew up with. That the male is the main bread winner and the female is the one who gets pampered. But ugh, I don't want that in total. I do love to baby my girl, I love her for all she is. So I suck it up a little and hug her in bed and baby her and caress her hair cuz she likes it like that. I wonder what images she has of herself when she imagines herself in a relationship.
Oh, and Happy Holidays to you!! I wish you a very merrry christmas with warmth and laughter joy and peace all around. I thank you for reading and commenting, really appreciate it.
Turns out there's a lot of differences in the both of us. We can find the place to meet each other halfway with no problems that we actually like our differences. I'm scared however that one day we won't be able to meet halfway and there belies our woes and problems.
I like to hugged too and I want her to hug me in bed. Not me hugging her all the time, I do ask her to hug me, and she does but only for a short moment.
She asked me last night if I would like it better if I found someone that was more like myself. Someone who enjoyed going out to the bars and clubs more often, someone who would enjoy getting drunk and enjoy a little spontaneity more often. All of the things she isn't. I told her, "No. Someone that is too like me would get on my nerves. I like the stability that she brings to our relationship. I feel safe with her, I feel as if we could be together for a long time. Someone who is much too like me would not believe in long-term relationships. Someone like me would change her mind so fast, a relationship wouldn't be anything at all."
I tell myself that if I need a dominant/submissive relationship, then I should go find it with the male species. Maybe it's the images that I grew up with. That the male is the main bread winner and the female is the one who gets pampered. But ugh, I don't want that in total. I do love to baby my girl, I love her for all she is. So I suck it up a little and hug her in bed and baby her and caress her hair cuz she likes it like that. I wonder what images she has of herself when she imagines herself in a relationship.
Oh, and Happy Holidays to you!! I wish you a very merrry christmas with warmth and laughter joy and peace all around. I thank you for reading and commenting, really appreciate it.
posted by extreMEly at 2:19 PM
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Hi from me- rn_buffoon of Australia; I have been reading your blog for the last half hour or so- just stumbled across it from Women Bloggers;I'll be back though- your style of writing is quite similar to mine in a way-emminently readable wouldn't you agree?
Just thought I'd say hi and leave a comment- all I seem to attract is lurkers.
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