Everything is so depressing
I'm still having trouble trying to get in contact with my family. I still have yet to hear from them. Haven't heard from them for the past two days. What luck. It pssts me off that my sister updates her xanga, yet sends no email to tell me they're alright. What the fucking fuck? They could give me a little ease of mind. It's not easy to be up here in bright sunny weather and have them down there with such inconveniences.
They had to drive in a broken AC, overcrowded van for about 16 hours. That's horrible! One night that I managed to get ahold of them, it was midnight and they were tired and sleeping. Fucking sis was too sleepy to talk. sheez, can she tell me that she's ok. ok, so maybe i'm overreacting and being a big baby about all this. But I'm up here feeling helpless, my supposedly best friend isn't helping in the least. She acts as if it's no big deal. Maybe it's my attitude that is giving off the "it's no big deal" demeanor. But hell, a little hug would be nice.
I'm just feeling a little lonely these days. Don't get me wrong, I'm really enjoying my classes and my job. Where does all my time go? I still try to make time to do the thing I love to do and that's to come and surf through my fav links. But I kinda miss the hugs and kisses and the compassionate feelings from somebody. Am I that hard to get along? Why do I send off signals that seem to say "get away from me"? It frustrates me to no end that people that I love just don't get what I want from them.
I need some phone calls and some messages of love.
I need some hugs, maybe even a little sympathy or assurance from my friends.
I've found that the area that my family resides in is one of the worse struck places. It's hard to believe that there might not be anything there when we get back. Everything has been water damaged. The whole house submerged up to rooftops. One of my most cherished--my baby pics, I believe to be all gone now.
Well, i hope my family is holding up well. I know this whole situation is going to put a lot of stress on my parents. I love them so much, I hope they know that. I hope they know that I am thinking of them and silently sending them telepathy messages that everything is going to be okay. They're in good hands. They're safe. What we lost were just material things. It's a blessing in disguise is what I am telling them. It would be 2 months before my sisters can get back into the swing of school and classes again.
It's so depressing. Everytime I flip on the news or look through google about my hometown and what's going on with the hurricane. I see so much disaster and stories of people going to get saved, people left stranded with no food or water. Death toll to be estimated among in the thousands. My god, it's freaking depressing.
They had to drive in a broken AC, overcrowded van for about 16 hours. That's horrible! One night that I managed to get ahold of them, it was midnight and they were tired and sleeping. Fucking sis was too sleepy to talk. sheez, can she tell me that she's ok. ok, so maybe i'm overreacting and being a big baby about all this. But I'm up here feeling helpless, my supposedly best friend isn't helping in the least. She acts as if it's no big deal. Maybe it's my attitude that is giving off the "it's no big deal" demeanor. But hell, a little hug would be nice.
I'm just feeling a little lonely these days. Don't get me wrong, I'm really enjoying my classes and my job. Where does all my time go? I still try to make time to do the thing I love to do and that's to come and surf through my fav links. But I kinda miss the hugs and kisses and the compassionate feelings from somebody. Am I that hard to get along? Why do I send off signals that seem to say "get away from me"? It frustrates me to no end that people that I love just don't get what I want from them.
I need some phone calls and some messages of love.
I need some hugs, maybe even a little sympathy or assurance from my friends.
I've found that the area that my family resides in is one of the worse struck places. It's hard to believe that there might not be anything there when we get back. Everything has been water damaged. The whole house submerged up to rooftops. One of my most cherished--my baby pics, I believe to be all gone now.
Well, i hope my family is holding up well. I know this whole situation is going to put a lot of stress on my parents. I love them so much, I hope they know that. I hope they know that I am thinking of them and silently sending them telepathy messages that everything is going to be okay. They're in good hands. They're safe. What we lost were just material things. It's a blessing in disguise is what I am telling them. It would be 2 months before my sisters can get back into the swing of school and classes again.
It's so depressing. Everytime I flip on the news or look through google about my hometown and what's going on with the hurricane. I see so much disaster and stories of people going to get saved, people left stranded with no food or water. Death toll to be estimated among in the thousands. My god, it's freaking depressing.
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